Ending to a blissful moment

THere will always be a time when you finally realize that the fun is over... And you feel at loss as to what to do next...
Today marks the end of my almost 2 weeks holiday...one of the longest holiday that i've had in recent years..or actually, for the past one year...

And unfortunately tomorrow i will begin my medical posting...my 4th posting..
It also marks my first anniversary since i've started working...which was 8.7.2008..exactly one year ago.

The feeling of disdain and morose befell me once more..actually, this kind of feeling has always enveloped me ever since I was a primary school.

I've never liked school..I always tend to find reason as to skip school..ever since kindergarten..and it had lasted until the end of secondary school.

The university years were not so bad, and I had actually liked going to university..with the more relaxed school and not so stringent rules. Even though during medical school, there were the frequent exams and all..but at the end of the day, what I can say is that I had enjoyed it very much and i've cherished every moment there.

And now come the working environment...The first posting was pure wreck for me..I had sort of enjoyed the paeds posting - especially the NICU part, but in general, since it was my first posting..there were so many adjustment for me..

And then the 2nd posting - which was O&G,-- oh my...That was a definite stress zone for me. None could have matched that.. With the ever pressing specialists and Medical officer - I had thought that I might have eventually had a breakdown.. but Alhamdulillah , I had actually survived..

3Rd posting was orthopaedics, which I had found to be quite enjoyful - there was both elements of surgical and medical based. The specialists were such wonderful bunch of people..what more with the ever cheerful yet sometimes moody MO;s , the posting was such an enjoyful posting...

and now...i'll be posted to MEdical...I don't know whether I can make it or not...I don't know whether I can survive the posting..what more with the upcoming Ramadhan...
YA Allah,..please give me the strength...